Monday, August 20, 2012
I Never Expected This
My blog is now a month old. In some ways it seems like it has been longer, a lot longer. I've been thinking about how this whole thing started...
I started out just as a lurker in blogland. I lurked for at least 3 weeks before I finally got up enough courage to actually comment on a blog. I commented anonymously about 6 times on Clint's blog. It got easier every time. I decided to give myself a name and I thought about what to use for a few days. Cowgirl Up just seemed a good fit. It has been a motto for me and my best advice. Not to mention, I AM a cowgirl. So, heck, why not just use that?
I started commenting with that name. Soon though, I wasn't happy just being the default avatar. I wanted to use an avatar of my own choosing. I had fun in my search, and finally came across this one that I really liked. I loved the horse and the sunset, plus it even looks a lot like me. But, how to post using it? I'm not the most techno-savvy, so it actually took me a little time to figure the whole thing out.
Long story short, or at least shorter, I found that I could have my very own blog! It's free! It would be so easy. I didn't need any special talent. There were plenty of designs and templates to chose from. I started thinking that this could be fun.
I had the intention of just trying it on for size. I thought I would just have a few posts with jokes and funny stories and that would probably be the end of it. I never intended to share anything very personal. I never expected to share intimate moments or things that really mattered to me. I just wanted to have some fun!
I can't believe how quickly that changed. I actually was feeling a little bit guilty; here I was reading all these personal, real things on others' blogs and I was sharing nothing. My first real post, How Living "As If" Became The Real Thing, changed everything for me.
In writing that post, I realized how helpful this blogging thing could be. Writing about things, helped me clarify them in my own mind. It reminded me of having a diary when I was a little girl. My last post, about my experience not standing in the corner, was so very personal to me. Writing it was almost as emotional as living it. Even if not one single person had read that post, I'm glad I wrote it. It was extremely therapeutic. I guess that's why journaling is supposed to be so effective.
The other thing I never expected was that I would come to care about all these other people in blogland! People I've never met and probably never will meet or even talk to except on blogs or emails. I consider them my friends. I pray for them when they write about struggles in their lives. I laugh when I read about funny experiences they've had. I like reading about their families. I am happy for them when I read about upcoming joyous events in their lives and I can't wait to read all about those too.
I never, ever expected anything like this to happen. I want to thank all of you who have joined my blog, commented on my blog, or just took the time to read a post or two. Many thanks also to all of you who added me to your blog roll. I appreciate it so much.
It has been fun, but it's been so much more than that!